Fears and God

I don't really think i have any real phobias. I mean spiders creep me out but i don't have an unnatural fear of them. Most of my small fears like spiders and things like that are easily taken care of by just handing them over to God and then finding something to kill it with. There are thing that are harder to handle like my fear of my mom dying. I mean i put that fear in God's hands to but a fear like that comes back a lot when your moms sitting in your living room on the recliner practically wasting away. I mean i trust in God to do what he said he would and pertect his people. I no that in the end he will do whats right but i still can't help wondering if he will decide that her passing away is better and that thought terrifies me because i have no idea what i will do without her. I feel like i am to imature to loose her and that she still has so much left to teach me and so much life to give. I also know that no matter what that God will take care of me and will never fore sake me which is a very comforting thought. I guess i don't fear very many things because of my church. we have always been told that God will take care of us so there is nothing to fear. I really do believe this because my mom should of died last year but instead she's still alive and hanging on and to me thats a miriacle. I think life is full of trials and fears but when i put them in Gods hands i always feel better.